Lexi Balla - A Conversation With God

God-
you.
Why do you do this?
My mom
my friends
all say
I should believe in you.
I can't.
People say that you're an
all-loving
all-forgiving
God.
But how can i believe something like that
When
YOU
gave my brother cancer
MY BROTHER
Yeah
So
He might not have been the best guy around
But I don't care
If he dies
then WHO
yeah,
i'm asking
WHO will take care of me?
If not him
then who?
you?
You couldn't even take care of your
GOD DAMN
(Yeah- you heard me)
son!
If he is your son.
He was a man
a good guy
but tell me
how
how
how
and why?
Why do you let us
humans
go through this?
If you
can control EVERYTHING
and don't give me that free will
bullshit
because
i'd bet you a dollar
that no one would want to get cancer
yeah
smokers smoke
but to get lymphoma?
or a child with cancer?
no one wants that
My friend kathleen says
that everything happens
for a reason
but what's the reason for this?
to test our faith?
because if this is a test
then surely
we
will
fail.

(To all those who have ever questioned god)

Lexi Balla

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