Leigh Ladd - Stone Wall

I lost my grasp
On all that I restricted.
Misplacing control over my thoughts and feelings,
Now everyone knows too much.

The stone wall that protects me,
It cracked one day.
I tried to patch the flaw,
But my world got easier to manipulate.

I feel shameful,
Letting the gaps in my wall get bigger,
Opening my entrails
For the world to set their eyes on.

'The less you say, the less you feel,
The less you show to others,
Less the chance to be hurt.'
That was always the motto.

Now I take inventory,
Of all the emotions I let out.
Gather them one by one,
Take back all that everyone knows.

Grabbing more stone and mortar
I place emotions back where they belong,
Restoring the wall that had shattered,
A creation impossible to destroy.

Leigh Ladd

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