Laura Cummings - Self-righteous Suicide

the worst is over.
WE’VE ONLY JUST BEGUN.
this painful time has finally come to an end.
FASTEN YOUR SEATBELT, YOU DON’T YET KNOW PAIN.
sitting back at home, free for once to watch Saturday night TV.
HA! NOT YET!
i can’t believe I got so stressed over nothing.
NOTHING?
yes, nothing. It’s always nothing, I just get silly sometimes.
YOUR SURE OF THAT?
Yes! Would never set out to hurt me.
BUT HE DID!
would never deliberately try to cause me pain.
BUT HE DID!
but he did….
EVERY WORD WAS A LIE!
not a word of truth in all that time.
FREQUENTLY MADE YOU CRY.
crying myself to sleep every night almost became a hobby for me.
KILL HIM!
if only something bad would befall him…
KILL HIM!
i always wanted to drown somebody…
KILL HIM!
yes?
KILL HIM!
i’m going to kill him.
YES! KILL HIM!
if he’s dead, he won’t be able to hurt me anymore.
KILL HIM!
YES! I will KILL HIM!
KILL HIM!
YES! I WILL KILL….NO! I will not let him destroy anymore of my life!
KILL HIM!
no!
KILL HIM!
NO!
KILL YOURSELF!
…
DIE!
…
YES!
…
DIE!

Laura Cummings

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