Kylie Archer - Crying

Mostly every night I cry myself to sleep. I lay here and think. I think of how my life would be if I didn't have all this pain. All the time I wish it would just go away, but I know it is here to stay. Every morning i don't want to get out of bed and every night I lay here wishing I was dead. Why does it have to be like this? Why do I have to miss out on my life. Why can't things just be flipping right? I just don't get it. I'm tired of feeling like shit. I want to grab the knife so badly and pierce my skin, but something stops me every time. This person looks into my eyes. 'Don't do it. Please stay', they say. He kisses my cheek and says 'I love you'. I just have to think of you and I know this is true. So I put the knife to the side and close my eyes. I realize this doesn't just affect me it affects every body around me. But no one understand that I just want to be free. So I just lie down on the floor and I cry myself to sleep...

Kylie Archer

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