Kevin Carney - Decieve You

I never lied or tried to deceive you…
It was such a horrible spot you put me in.
I don’t think you really believe,
what you mean to me.
I just couldn’t believe,
if you did,
you would use me this way.

So sad I am,
in losing it all for you.
I feel this great burden you provided me.
Sending me the choice of what to do,
it was beyond my control.
What a choice to make,
losing in the end either way.

I just want to fade away,
go off and lose myself.
Today the day you went… look at my sad face,
it’s all I can do to hold control.
You just don’t get it,
that you are the fatal disease to me…
I just think about you leaving,
something wants me to die inside.

I wish I could be cold, and walk away from this.
Never will, I know, you walked away from this.
I wish I could have some apathy,
not give a damn, what you have done to me.
Wish I could change the love for hate,
I just don’t think I could do this to you.

I don’t give a damn of my own isolation…
I lost it all and care nothing anymore for myself…
I am so full of pain and agony,
all I can do to live day to day.
I won’t give up on you, I don’t think I ever can.

I don’t know if I can be strong enough to see….
It’s all been what it’s meant to be.
Guaranteed to just tear me all apart,
leaving me so twisted and bent.
Walking alone down this foggy road.

Kevin Carney

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