Kelsea Osterman - Confused

I am so confused.
I want to kiss you.
And yet I want to smack you
and tell you to stay away.
I want to pull you closer so
I have someone to hold on to.
But then I want you to go away
and never come back.
NO wait I want you to stay
with me, and help me, love me.
I don't know what I want right now.
I am so confused.
You mean so much
to me and yet so little.
I am just too confused to know
what is good and what is bad.
I just want you to leave or stay right
now don't ask what I want.
What I say makes no sense
but I guess you just need to get over it.
Because what I say is the truth.
I love you and always will.
What I want is to know what I
really want in life.
So if you can't help
me then stay away.

Kelsea Osterman

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/confused-179/