katelin offord harper - Not This Time

The look on her face
When I start to head her way
The voices and laughter
Of me and them
I just wish I could
Just run run away
I so much wanna leave
Nothing left here
For me
If I graduate
I’ll stand up there
By myself looking like
A fool
No one to be happy
For me
What can I do to make everything stop
I got no one to stand up for me
Besides me
Why do I have to suffer all by myself
This makes me by myself
There is many things I can do
To end it all
But the many things all involve
Harming myself
My decisions will only make everything worse
I wish everything would end
Even myself
But I am not going to allow them to win
Not this time
For once I’m going to win
Not them
They can’t break me down
They can’t harm me
Not this time
I’m like a skyscraper
I’m unreachable
Untouchable, no scratches or scars
Can reach me
Not unless I allow it too
But I am not allowing it this time
No not this time
Don’t allow them to hurt you
You are stronger
Keep your head up high
Not this time

katelin offord harper

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