kanako izumkui - alone, dark

-How many tears must fall till i run out of hope-

“I have come to realize more and more that the greatest disease and the greatest suffering is to be unwanted, unloved, uncared for, to be shunned by everybody, to be just nobody [to no one].”

Alone in the dark dismal world,

black tears fall from my eyes...every moment i breathe, drowning in my tears of sorrow,

scared, hurt, hopeless, everything slipped away the minute. never thought it would happen so fast. never ending sadness, never ending pain. nothing but black dismal darkness...full of my feelings.... i weep and weep wondering, pondering, will i ever be saved, or is my heart to lost to be found. who would have thought the darkness screams' so loud...i'm constantly trying to cast out, my hopeless cries for help. my screams of sadness, and the voice of my tears.
i can see nothing but darkness, all my memories are lost in the black sea of tears.

here alone in this painful darkness i will embrace. no one can hurt me but myself, i wont be worrying others with my cuts & tears.. i wont be a trouble.
let me be consumed.

kanako izumkui

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