Josiah Decker - A Dry Drunk

I don't smoke that Green no more
Not tipsy from the Captain's support
Still crazy as ever
Just finding other ways to keep it together

These days I've had try harder
To keep trust, gain trust
To keep my cool
To make sure I don't cross lines
Addiction was easy
Sobriety takes it all

I use to be able just light up
Hide in the clouds til the ground looked safe
Maybe down a bottle or two to numb my pain
Now I have to face my fears and pain
If not for me, than my family

I had to face the facts
The fact I was turning into him, Daddy dearest
The one man I hate
So before there was no turning back time for a 180
I guess it all comes down to who I want to be and if I want to change

These days I've had try harder
To keep trust, gain trust
To keep my cool
To make sure I don't cross lines
Addiction was easy
Sobriety takes it all

Josiah Decker

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