Jonnie Wheeler - Everyday

Everyday I wake up
And feel tremendous pain
Disappointment, realisation
Because I woke up again

I roll over, I see him
The person that I love
And all that plagues my mind right then
Is 'why did I wake up? '

I try to smile, its now so hard
To pretend that I'm OK.
Cant hide it now, it screams so loud
I'm nearly about to break

Self harm was a treatment,
a stupid one I know,
But it stopped my mind from clogging up
And racing to and fro

But it doesnt work, no longer hurts
Just makes me feel a dick
Cant believe I now have 3 more scars
It makes me feel so sick.

I'm ready now, its time to go,
I say before I sleep
In the hope that I'l be taken away,
Away from all this shit.

The thoughts have been crossing my mind,
A constant lingering thought
Say my goodbye, have a little cry
An ending so heavily sought.

But Everyday I wake up
I do it for my love
But one day it will ruin
What we have and such

It'll finish me, the final push
Before the end arrives
But I found my love, I found my one
I'll be OK to say goodbye

Jonnie Wheeler

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/everyday-126/