Jessie Lee - Life, death, or hell

i hate myself
i hate my life
nobody near is here
but everyone far away is where i need 'em
im alone
in a world of confusionand fear
i need true freinds
i need them near
i need to get my mind sorted
before life gets more out of hand
before i cant get it back
or is it already to far gone
to bad no one will let me leave
this world behind
i wont be remembered
ill be forgotten
no one will care
i hate it here
i hate it all
all my freinds who were before
no longer care
all my freinds who are far away
want to be here to comfort me
why do people love me
nothing unique
nothing specail
the worlds most un answered questions i guess
no one has a real answer
if you call me pretty, ill deny it
i appreciate compliments, but dont agree
what the hell is wrong with me
can anyone calm me down
can anyone help me
show me, teach me the way to heaven
nothing ive tried can get me there
you are my hope
when everyone walks out on me
you are my faith
when i think theres none left
people judge and people hate
cant we all just co-operate
its all just a mes
whats up with this
i need my life back
i need to be happy
clearing my mind, focusing on the good didnt help
im glad for my real freinds
im glad you care
but im a lost cause
when i snap
please be there
dont abandon me like everyone else
prove your different, prove your a true freind
i dont want to fake this anymore
it just makes me hate myself more
what to do.....

Jessie Lee

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