Jeff Gibbs - An Endless Ode

Will I find peace again
Amidst the darkness that I surround myself in
Collecting, harboring, breathing sorrow
Whose hands will catch me if I fall?

Broken and fading
Helpless to my thoughts that confide in me
No-one should ever feel the way I feel now
Shrouded and blanketed in their own silence

Why am i so numb?
Thrown adrift deep within my own sleepless dreams
Will my emptiness stay within me from here on in?
Can the strength be returned to my frail trust?

I am void of purpose
So completely enveloped by my own tragedy
A sad tale of boy meets beautiful girl
A dwindling end that just consumes him

Trapped and tortured
Can I be any better than this for myself?
The air around me is starving for an argument
Pulling and testing my passive nature

Elective silence
The reason behind my retreat to within me
I wrote down the words I love you
I felt nothing

My hope is feeling worn
There are parts of me that I already miss
Seems as thought I am so much colder than yesterday
My heart frozen, wilting a little more each day

It’s yet to be determined
Whether these days will pass by unseen
Who will come home to let me in?
Faceless pain and the reality that stings

An endless ode to no-one
Countless words written for sightless eyes,
A souls’ scream splashed upon paper
Another moment I indulge to depression rather than…

Jeff Gibbs

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