jay mills - understand the last 12 seconds

there is always going to be that one person to me that I confessed how I felt which were my true compassionate feelings towards her. There are the songs that I listen to till this very day where I’m reminded of how much she cared but at the same time it also reminds me of how it came with ease as if it were carefree…I wish I never told her how much I really adored her because maybe she would undergo the same desire for me as I do her. I wish I learned to be shy but now I cant dwell…its soo…different now I want her to hear what I have to say but it would no longer make sense to her…I’m not saying that I wish I never met her…but I’m not saying that I wanted to fall for her either…I just NEEDED her to understand and till this day still NEED her to know that I still carry those feelings inside…now time is against me. everyday that passes the less I think she begins to understand…GOD if I was only daring enough to let her know that, there are certain days where I would give up the most beautiful days after she left me where she didn’t have to say the words I longed for because I felt it, I understand and I know now…

jay mills

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