Jamal ugh - Broken rose

If i can't find sanity in this black world
I wish to drown in pain and never wake up
The words the broke me and shatterd my soul
To think, I actually thought I had value

Without a method to fix a all to fragle heart
I was wishing, not only to be alone, but also, to die
It's quite strange, without you, I breath and function properly
But on the inside, it feels like I'm drowning

It feels like i never want to breath again, never see the sun again
never feel this pain again, but I know I have to
echoed, conspicuously, your lies spoke beautifully but all lies
the growing rose we shared, Is now severed

No matter how deep i cut, i cannot find sanity
lost in humanity, to lost to find a heart, that was never mine
I shall drown in my shame and blood, lost but never loved
my only home is my grave, you know, where the heart is.

Jamal ugh

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