iamjc lunaria - PRETEND

do we really have to pretend? ?
... do we consider it to be in our daily route?
is pretension relevant in human beings?
why do we have to pretend? ?

me i dont know, but i used to pretend.. yes most of the time
im pretending... i pretend i have that i have those i am that i am this etcetera etc.
why do i have to? ? ?
well maybe because this means is very well compensating! !

yeah.. by this means i feel so happy... i find happiness by pretending..
as much as possible i don't wanna live on it but i cant help it but to do it over and over again..

sometimes i feel im gaining as a human being...

...by pretending i feel so validated! ! !

yes validated.. maybe that would the bottom line...
validations! ! ! we human beings used this action word just to feel the validity that we havent felt in this so perfect so vivid world of reality..

i have been imprisoned in my own world.. world that ive created because i have been rejected beneath this world of mine! !

I'd rather stick in this perfect world i created just to be so accepted and approved even if it makes me moribund! ! ! !

at least for just a couple of time i can say i sometimes felt so validated! ! ! !

i felt so validated no matter how untrue this might be! ! !
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then at the end of the day... satisfaction is not enough to have this validation! ! !

iamjc lunaria

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