Hyde - When You Thought I Was Sleeping

When you thought I was sleeping, I was really lying awake in bed, too scared of the darkness to even begin to think of sleep.

When you thought I was sleeping, I was really listening to you and your lover scream and shout at the top of your lungs.

When you thought I was sleeping, I was really lining my panties with tissues, to afraid to ask you for a pad.

When you thought I was sleeping, I was really watching as you ate white powder, and the starting kissing the sofa.

When you thought I was sleeping, I was really half way out my window with my thoughts fully angled toward getting high on some dope.

When you thought I was sleeping, I was really drunk and making an ass of myself.

When you thought I was sleeping, I was really crying and terrified, as a man was touching and grabbing me everywhere.

When you thought I was sleeping, I was really losing my virginity, to a guy I hardly knew.

When you thought I was sleeping, I was really in front of the corner store, holding a positive pregnancy test.

When you thought I was sleeping, I was really shoving a coat hanger up inside me, hoping to diminish any life within me.

When you thought I was sleeping, I was really lying under the stars, transfixed by their mysterious beauty, wondering what to do next.

When you thought I was sleeping, I was really writing my goodbye letter, as tears cascaded down my cheeks.

When you thought I was sleeping, I was really taking a razor blade to my wrists, causing me to be drenched in my own blood.

When you thought I was sleeping, I was really dead and gone, at last away from my life in hell.

Hyde

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