Heather Kemper - Addict

I am an addict
if only an addict to myself.
I am insecure afraid
of never being loved by anyone else.
Afraid to quit
to give up that rope,
the one that I cling to
that gives me hope.
Petrified of gaining weight,
of becoming fat,
being a disgusting disgrace.
I am an addict
weak and sad.
An addict of my fears
I admit to myself
that's what I am.
Trapped in my head
looking for an antidote
to reverse the dread
I am an addict
locked up in myself
scared I'll never be truley loved
lost to everyone else.

Heather Kemper

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/addict-2/