Haley Brown - I'm Just A Child

Everything is computer generated.
Not me.
I'm much more than that.
I'm real.
Just a real child.
Just a real, brokenhearted child.

We go through each day
In this corrupted world.
Sonetimes I sit and wonder
How things ever got this way.

That night,
When things got so bad.
All I thought was
'Where's Benson and Stabler? '

No one was there to help me.
Pinned down so helpless.
I couldn't even scream.
How could he be so selfish.

I was just a child.
Just a helpless child.

I'll never forget
The look on his face
The way he laughed while he hurt me.
Or, the smell of his colonge.

Things will never get better
Its stuck there in my mind.
Something that will never go away.
Something not many understand.

I was just a child.
Just a changed forever child.

I was so angry.
I hurt myself
And those around me.
For the longest time
I blamed God.
I thought He was here to protect me.
So how could He let this happen?

But now I know it happened for a reason.
It led me to do things I'm not pround of.
But now, I have been able to help another.

Everything is still computer generated.
I'm still not.
I'm much more than that.
Me, I'm still real.
Still just a real child.
Still just a real, brokenhearted child.

Haley Brown

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