Hadyn Rodriguez - CoLd WiNteR

It's so lonely and so cold it's ice, this day belongs to me. Frostbite takes hold of my hands, feet and body. I'm so numb I could die right here and now. Blood drips down my nose and sinks Into my skin. Staring into darkness I stab myself will I leave this earth now or later. My blood drips and pours all over In the snow. I can't feel anything at all. The fire burns my hair, and glass slices my hands, wrists, and stomach. The darkness takes a hold of me that I cry bloody tears. Screaming to the skys no one hears. I cut my legs and thighs the blood oozes, oozes all over me. I have a bad feeling I run like hell I see everything from up here it's all black and red. Bullets hit me sink deeper then my blade I fall and won't stop falling. Days later I awake to find myself in my coffin no one came to my funeral or even left me a rose. You said I was going to hell I'm already their. I want to be free from these chaiNs holding me down. I count the days down till I truelly die. No one can help or save me I could just walk through barbed wire and that won't kill me. Let me go I just wAnt to die use anything just kill me already. Get it over with choke, throw knives at me. I have no meaning for life that I'm kissing death i was born with everything but will die with nothing. Pain is my only satisfaction it's the air I breathe and the water I drink. The more blood I lose I feel stronger I inflict myself or have others do it to me. But that one fatal day you left me to be in so much pain for years I commited suicide till my cold black heart stopped beating I died that night....

Hadyn Rodriguez

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