foxy babii - To Much

Why can’t I say the truth?
Why do I fear to let it out?
Do I need a hand to hold mine?
Do I need someone else to shout?

Why can’t I just be honest?
And not hold my feelings in
Why do I say the opposite?
So it does not feel like a sin

So they don’t get hurt
But they will anyway
If I feel so much hate
It’s going to break one day

Why do I say?
I am not ready yet
To leave to make this right
This is what I don’t get

I know I am unhappy
Yet I do nothing to make it right
I try a little harder to be happy
And leave it another night

But each day I wake is just the same
Change is only a dream
This is not right
Its to hard it may seem

I don’t know what to do
I am confused deep in my heart
I want to run I want to hide
Something has to start

I don’t know how to fix this
I don’t know what to do
Should I live for them?
Or to myself be true
By foxy 08

foxy babii

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