Fadwa Saidani - Emptiness

sitting alone
in the middle of the night
twisted thoughts rolling
fucking with my empty head
maybe i was right
maybe i should come across the light
maybe i have to stop the fight

my past is coming back to hunt me
can't escape it
tried enough to break it
still a part of me
can't pretend that i can't see
the signs
of my weakness, regret
knowing am unable to forget
my sorrow is infinite

its been two years
still fighting the same fears
one step forward and million
steps back
my world has always been black

people say they're always
there by your side
but soon they give up
sooner then you do
cause they never understand u
never been through
all the shit
u had to handle by our own
stand by u at first
then u find yourself thrown

to the dark nights to eat
your soul
day by day
year by year
and you're still always the same
tired of playing the same game
it was the only thing
about it I was right

I was born alone
always will be
been trapped in darkness
no one could see
my pen and paper were
my only salvation
I have no choice but to write..

Fadwa Saidani

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