Everlasting Nightmare - My Silent Struggle

I walk down the halls,
smiles and lockers.
I look at them all,
it would shock her.

I point to a girl,
standing in the hall.
A different world.
I fooled them all.

They don't know,
what I hide.
I don't show,
my feelings inside.

They don't see,
every cut and slit.
It is just me,
the fuse is lit.

Ticking and ticking,
'til i cut too deep.
Not even thinking,
or I will weep.

Not even she knows,
she is my mother.
Not even he knows,
he is my brother.

The silent battle,
I fight inside.
Nothing that will,
save my life.

Every single day,
I spend not eating.
There is no way,
I am retreating.

I will fight to the end,
when I cut to deep.
I will defend,
'til the never-ending sleep.

I will not starve,
until I give up.
Which is not far,
where is love?

Hate is all I feel, it's the only thing real...

Everlasting Nightmare

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