ESPN CHICK - This Life

Tears falling down my face
I wonder what am I gonna do
This pain is killing me slowly but surly

And I don't want to die
No not yet anyhow

I just want to live my life with out pain for once
Without tears falling down my face every other day
Cause this life I'm living is getting old

I just want to quit worrying my life away
But for some reason my heart won't let me

It won't let me forget the past
Forget all those painful moments
My heart won't let me forget those thoughts, those horrible thoughts

Those thoughts about him
Those thoughts about suicide

Oh why won't my heart let me forget these things
And this life means nothing at all
Nothing to me anyhow cause I know I'm not gonna make it past these storms

I've got too much pain to offer and not enough love
Not enough happy memories

Every time I think about the past
Tears fall down my face at night
Cause I hide all the tears during the day while people are around

I put on a fake smile when no one is looking
And I cover up my face in the mirror

Cause I hate what I see
I hate that I can't be me
Be who I want to be without getting shot down

I feel like I want to scream out loud
And maybe punch the wall a few times

Feel like this life is going no where
Going no where but dead ends
This life is longing for something but what

This life needs something more than this
More than just pain and painful memories

This life needs a change
A change from the inside out
This life needs something I will never have


May 5,2008

ESPN CHICK

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