Eman Awad - An ending life

An empty side of the bed,
an endless and a voidfull space.
Thoughts racing in my head,
in the mirror, there is a tired face.
Unaware, who i live beside,
is it my useless life, ongoing endessly?
And memories i can't leave behind,
along with a picture of you and me.
Words that once i've said,
feelings that dwelt my heart.
Am i alive or dead?
either ways i'm so torn apart.
All alone trying to get there,
i needed help but non i've got.
No one's here for no one care,
even the one i loved alot..
I was ready to give my life time,
and i fullfilled the promise i made.
Taken away, all that's mine,
tears are falling on my weary shade.
Breathing, hoping for this breath to be the last,
but i'll live to go through each moment of pain.
Standing in between of no future and a past,
a past i won't get over, dying but it'll remain.
I can tamp the tears,
i can pretend i'm fine though.
But i can't control my fears,
and they won't let go...
A life i'm living it's end,
every single day for over a year.
I'm ending but i'll pretend,
that i'm expecting a miracle here.
A smile i'm not allowed to see,
not any more, it's not my right.
Look how despaired i'm to be,
and i thought you'd stand by me tonight.
You may feel sorry for my life,
and you may even feel so sad over me.
But once this poem is over, you'll be back to your life,
and you may never remember me...
But once you linger this,
pray for me with the salvation that i'd never get.
Pray for god to end my lonliness,
make today's wish mine, but please, don't forget

Eman Awad

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