Eben S J - Agony

Standing buffeted by bygone winds
I renew my bond with agony
Just to check she still walks beside me
She lets me know I’m still here

She is always waiting for me in my times of need
She is the one that keeps me
With a steady hold on life
She always cares

She is always there even when
The world is overbearing
She takes me under her wing
She always looks after me

When everyone has given up
On me and gone home to loving families
I am still her burden
For her alone to carry

She is the one above everyone else
Who has the will to finish
What she started
And unburden herself

She punishes me for crimes
I could not commit
Loving, loathing agony
I cannot thank you enough

I think of you and smile
On the outside I am perfectly fine
To those bitter other people
They are happy they have to worry about me no longer

Not having the time or patience
To find out
What I’m really all about
Agony is always reliable

Her presence deep inside
Is slowly breaking my heart
But at least she lets me know
That someone still cares

For all of you who are too busy
Wrapped up in your perfect lives
Try meeting agony
To get a grip

On the real meaning
Of what life is
If you find her she may be merciful
If she finds you, true hell awaits

Cast away your fear of agony
Once accustomed to her
Ever presence you get used to the fact
That love is agony.

Eben S J

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