Derrick Andrews - I'm Sorry I Exist...

My hopes have abandoned me, I lay goal-less and lost,

My own faults have caused this, and I'm paying the cost,

A lifetime of ambition, seemingly wasted,

While the fruits of my accomplishments lay sweet and untasted,

My goals have rounded the corner, and I'm nowhere to be found,

If only I hadn't slacked off or played around,

I cant lose what I've slaved over, I cant let that be,

For without my current goals, I'll no longer be me,

I no longer worry about my future employment,

I just want to get rid of my parents disappointment,

For it burns like a thousand suns upon my skin,

The pain is unbearable, and I can't hold it in,

All I've ever wanted in life, is to make my parents content,

Sadly my concentration whittled away, and left a sizeable dent,

In my future aspirations, my desires, and my dreams,

My life is at its end, or least thats how it seems,

I can not go on living, knowing I have failed my mission,

I feel as though I'm in a recessive state, a form of weak submission,

I mourn the loss of my character, I'm now empty inside,

My wants and humble aspirations have recoiled painfully, and died,

So I stand now before you, no longer happy at all,

As playfull and full of life, as a insignificant, soul-less doll,

There's no longer a reason for me to roam this earth, alone,

so I apologize for my existence, I sincerely and utterly condone...

Derrick Andrews

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