Crimson Love - Wanting Death

My body is unable to move,
Paralyzed by the Life I've tried to take away,
Sharp pains, pierce my heart,
Just like my life, its falling apart,

I hate Life! I just want it to stop,
I'm hurting, why does no one care for crimson?
Feeling sorry for myself, because I'm the only one willing,
You don't know how much I yearn to have one person be there,
I am alone, for now, and forever,
till the ends of time, and from the very beginning,
Perhaps Crimson is unlovable,
Perhaps she's as unimportant as she thinks she is,

The only thing keeping me company,
is the dead, floating around,
So insane...I know....
Wishing to be as they are,
I wish to be among the dead,

They fly around me, they smile at my thoughts,
They feed off the impurity that is crimson.
They gently tug at my breath,
slowly I exhale, letting them grasp,
gently lured into forever,
I let them take my breath away,

Finally I can be with the only ones whom love me,
The dead, the ones non existant just like I was to be,
So invisble to everyone, I was really the ghost,
People won't miss me, They never new I existed,
Now I can be happy, with my deathly friends,
Forever in slumber, playing within a dream,
My shadows of death always there,
with me their love they shall share.

Crimson Love

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