Confusion Undastood - A dead heart

*Heavy Sigh*
I don't even know why I even considered to try,
Don't even know why I would risk hurt again
To feel for a minute what I know to me is forbidden.

It's messed up it really is
That no matter how much I give
I always get f*cked in the end,
It didn't matter that i was more more than a lover
more to you than just a friend
I cooked, I cleaned, I loved, I cared
But at the end of the day confirmed were my fears
that you never loved me with the intensity I loved you.

As the sun sets in the evening
and all expecting it will rise again
was my hope that i would find the peices to my love torn apart

But never again will I have that vulnerability
To feeI special when I was really not,
Because for as long as I knew you, to you I was never beautiful
just cute or hot.
It is sad I gave so much
with only heartace being the gift of your love and appreciation.

Gone now are my tears, even my ability to feel
As I have now gone past cold and bitter
To numb and indifferent
my loveless fate indefinitely now sealed......

Confusion Undastood

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