Compton Wright - My Blinded Thoughts

I must be blinded! Not physically but mentally
as I look upon my ex-lover, memories
appear like dreams, showing our love as a whole,
the choices I made, the sacrifices that alter my life
and also myself as a person but when my common sense
open its eyes. I realize that she only love me for my reputation
as a true lover...in bed! I felt like the suffering blacks inside the ships
through the great passage
my best friend who I trusted, like by the crowd,
living the good life, going to parties, clubs and more
something I always wanted to have but next day
blood spread on the corner of the school grounds
screams echoed through the streets
but the air still hard to breathe
it like toxic of the gas chamber
my body dies from within and suffers,
my mind rots, kills and stop all thinking
who can I can fall upon, who can I depend on
my church tells that he gives and takes but
to me it like he only takes instead of gives
maybe I'm not faithful enough
or just too many beliefs about god not being real
if heaven was a mile I would walk every step to god
and tell him to prove them wrong, make yourself known
so is my sight of life is really blind...
well maybe because the dirt thrown in our eyes
as we get buried by discrimination, racism,
and our develop sense of ignorance on one another
when will it stop...my blindness getting to me!
maybe by the lack of luck and happiness that
made me truly blind
if I'm blind let it be if this my fate
let it be dark, away from the seeing of other
people who are suffering, killing and robbing
but yet without my sight, I'm not a poet and
that's what when Langston question comes
to mind... is this a dream deferred?
my answer...yes.

Compton Wright

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