Cody Testerman - Once Heavon, Now Hell

There’s no more love inside of me, only hate
I am now lost and have fallen… fallen away
Far from your world, crying from knowing that you are gone
And now no more great emotions caress me anymore
Life hurts so much, I long to hold you again
I need to start a new life…a new life to begin

And so when I pass you by, you always avoid me
But once our eyes meet on the way, I start smiling
And so I wish to dance again with you in vermillion rain
But I know we’ll never be friends again, that fills me with so much pain

We once lived a life of passion, you and me
A wonderful life undisturbed by shame, depression, and misery
Until a group of strange beasts made a deal, you see
They demanded me to leave you alone
No… this cannot be

Of course I did what I did to keep you safe
But it was the worst nightmare that I could face
There was no more love from you after I pushed you away
But my friend I have one last thing to say

I love you so much, you don’t even know
That I cried at the moment when I let you go
You are the greatest person I ever knew
I can’t believe I have done this to you

Now for all the pain and misery on the inside
I decide to make you happy one last time
And pull the trigger onto myself and commit suicide

Cody Testerman

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