chance topliss - the demons inside me

i soar through the sky
as happy as a man
can possibly be

a few years have passed
i walk through the night
as sad
as anyone
could possibly be

i wait to die
wait till the day i can fly
i take a sip of this
memory eraser

nothing i hate more
then songs about
happy endings

my life will not end happy
my life use to be happy

i smoke this drug
hoping it will prevent me
from being a sad death

i take these pills
so i wont die
so i wont kill myself

i forget my happy past
so i wont be more depressed

i have demons
everyone i know has them
but mine are the worst

my past haunts me
knowing i use to be happy

its three am
i jump in a lake
rocks tied all around me
knowing what will happen next

trying to drown my sarrows in death
im sorry loved ones but i am gone
ive been dead for most of my life
now i am dead

maybe i can find some peace in hell
mabe just maybe you can live a different life
because mines no good
so take another path

good luck to ya
i hope not to see you
in the next life

chance topliss

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