Baby Blue - heartache

ive sat here for years
wondering if you have ever
really loved me.
maybe you don't because im too
much like my mother.
maybe its because she broke your heart.
well, im sorry that i look, and act like her.
the truth is, that she is great, something that you
completely missed, and never saw. she raised me
and her manners and thoughts have been delicately
placed within everything that i am.

she once told me that you picked my brother
over me, that...shall i say it....you 'get along better with him.'
how dare you! ! ! im part of your flesh, your blood is in me! ! !
you talk to me about heartache, and relationship problems,
something that your own daughter does not need nor want to know.
id have to say, that the only thing that you have positively done
in this world, is given life to me and my brother, all the rest is worthless.

you dumped us by the side of the road, left
us stranded in a puddle, and never looked back.
But that was your loss. Mom found the man of her dreams;
my daddy, that is interfolded in my thoughts, beliefs, and convictions.
he raised me to be the woman that you see,
he is there for me, he listens to the words that i have to say,
he has that broad shoulder to catch all of the tears that i have cried.
I am his child, theres no element of 'step' involved-he's my daddy!

im sorry that you have to hear this, and that i even have to say it
but, your not my father, you didn't raise me.
you have even lied to me, and multiple times at that! !
but, all that aside...i forgive you, and i still do love you,
despite all the tears and hurt you have caused.

written 1-27-08

for father (biological father who is not the man that raised me)

Baby Blue

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