Ashley Proulx - Phoenix

I have finally moved on.
Free I am once again like a bird whose wings have been broken for far too long.
I cannot be caged, I will not be held back or told what to do for I am no longer a slave to an ungrateful lover.
No longer will I be a prisoner chained by my own will, for I blinded myself from seeing the truth and sat quietly in this darkness that I created so I could hide from the light.
I didn’t want to see what was in front of me but the truth is I always knew because no ones heart shatters without a reason and perhaps I thought if I hid long enough I would never have to come to terms with the pain I would be engulfed by.
I subconsciously counted down the days and too long I had been feeling starved of affection so once I had been all used up and left cold and alone I knew that was when my life would start again.
I was a tormented soul ashamed of who I had become never feeling anything but bitter emptiness, the fire that kept me alive died so long ago and the woman I kept hidden away almost vanished, but I knew what I had to do to restore myself.
I had to die and once I came to terms with this death I was free and found myself to be so full of grace and courage.
When the pain diminished the light shinned deeply piercing into my soul and setting it on fire, Like the phoenix I had been reborn into a world I had desired for much too long, wild, and untamed.
I had been freed from all suffering and in doing so I am free to love again and I know whenever I start to fall that there will always be some ones arms reaching out to catch my heart in their hands before it shatters to the ground, for I am no longer alone.
I survived a broken heart, I am alive, and ready to fall in-love all over again and this time I am stronger than ever before.
I will not be left torn for I am reborn…..

Ashley Proulx

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