Ashley Nichol - Im Dying

Screaming on the inside.
Kicking and crying on the outside.
Wanting him back.
Needing to hear him.
Gasping, Trembling, Trying to find the words.
Getting mad,
Getting angry,
Hating the world,
Then breaking completely down.
Cant breathe,
Drowning in tears.
Sobbing hard,
Praying for God's help with everything I have.
Lump in my throat,
Knots in my stomach.
Tears soaking up my face.
The salty taste is in my mouth.
Wanting him to feel the love I feel for him.
Wanting him to see the pain he's putting me through.
Not strong enough.
Don't have the strength to hide the hurt.
Trying to hold back, but I am about to burst.
Feeling rejected, cant find what I've left behind.
Im losing faith, falling from grace, Im all over the place.
Lost inside. Not complete.
I need to step up and be strong.
Cant show him my weakness.
He wont see the tears behind these hazel eyes.
He'll never know how I truely feel.
Hoping he feels it too.
I wont give up. I cant.
I have to stay true. I will use the rest of my strength, I'll show him I love him.
Scared of rejection again.
I dont want it to come to that.
Terrified.
The thing I want most is the only thing that petrifies me.