Aryl Eam - I've Lost Count...

I’ve lost count of how many times I deleted your number from my phone
Of how many times I missed you afterward and felt so alone

I’ve lost count of how many times I decided to bring things between us to an end
Of how many times I hoped we could be more than just friends.

I’ve lost count of how many times I tried not to cringe when you say her name
Of how many times I wished what we have isn’t just a game

I’ve lost count of how many times I told myself to stop this madness
Of how many times I found myself longing for your kisses

I’ve lost count of how many times I hid my tears behind a smile
Of how many times I wanted to be with you even for a little while

I’ve lost count of how many times I stopped myself from falling for you
Of how many times I lay in your arms, wondering if you felt something special for me too

Aryl Eam

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