Anthony Eccles - I Dont Know

I got so much to say, but cant figure this out,
because my memory just fades, then it all just blanks out,

all my thoughts get confusing, an my words just clam up,
as i sit here refueling, i just wana give up,

im not cut out for the pressure of this crazy made world,
an just want to lay back, an watch my future unwirl,

but my calling is nothing, but a messed up dream,
that is nowhere i can get to, just a place thats unseen,

i dont know where i belong, i just no its not here,
i have waited too long ive cried too many tears,

for the fear of been a nothing, but a jobless mug,
wishing everyday my life will change so i can give up,

there is nothing i can do to change the way that i am,
there is nothing you can say to me so i understand,

i make my own choice, your not me i am myself,
if the moment comes ill take an hold on with both hands..

Anthony Eccles

http://www.poemhunter.com/poem/i-dont-know/