Angelique' Rockwell - Spilling

I'm having a very bad, lonely year
Although I know I'm not the only one
So I'll spill, as I call it, just a little bit
Everything in 2005 has been on the run

My husband's in jail for DUI and child abuse
For driving fucked up with our son in the car
Although I know I could bail him out
I know he wouldn't go very far

I'm feeling very lost and empty
Almost like I want to cry
My lover left for New Orleans
And he didn't even say goodbye

I know he had to go for work
But I still miss him anyway
I know I'll see him when he returns
But I think of him every day

My girlfriend went home to West Palm
Just a little road trip with her son
She got food poisoning and has been sick
She said she won't be back until it's done

My best friend has been working alot
She calls whenever she gets a chance
We go for a drink and catchup on goings on
Then she leaves without a backwards glance

This is only the very tip top
Of the bullshit life I've been handed
I ask for a little attention once in awhile
And somehow I always feel abandoned

I'll stop here, before I get depressed
Alone for the first time in my life
I'm starting out new, only me and my kids
The emptiness inside cuts me like a knife

09/14/2005

Angelique' Rockwell

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