Angelique' Rockwell - Going Back to Work

Today I looked at my world
And saw my children playing, four
Running all around me
With dirty fingers, slamming doors

I don't want to leave them
I'm not ready to go, but I'm in debt
I love learning each and every tick
And the date has not yet been set

I know I have to return to work
But thinking of it makes me sad
I've known the time will come
I guess I hoped I wouldn't feel so bad

I love being at home
Now even more then before
But again I feel it ending
Going back just as it were

Me leaving for work each day
Being home only to clean, yell and scold
I want to watch them learn and grow
Sometimes they even do what they're told

This shit gets me extremely depressed
I want to pull away to ease the pain
Then run back to snuggle them all
Quickly going from crazy to insane

Why did God give me another chance?
Only to take them away again
I've just began to get to know them
It's about to all stop now-but when?

I'll enjoy them while I'm here
I can't ask for anything more
Life has given and taken so much
So confusing, my heart stays sore

I'm trying to forget that soon I'll have to leave
That this is all coming to an end
I'll be a normal, single, working mom soon
Just another heartbreak to mend....

2/20/2008

Angelique' Rockwell

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