Allysyn Bryant - Damn Him

I thought I was okay
But now I see
That nothings change
I feel the same way.

This morning I woke up
And I was okay
In a happy mood
For the 1st time this week
And it could've lasted all day
It would of too but then
He asked me what's wrong...

Instantly I wanted to cry
I wanted to hold him tight
But I knew I couldn't
At that point I'd only be going backwards
Not forwards, like I need too.

I love him. Always will.
But I can't.
I can't love him anymore.
I can't be with him anymore.
I want to turn the page
But I can't
I need to get over him
But I can't

I miss him.

Why does he have to have that look?
Why does he have to look at me with those eyes?
Why does he have to hug me with arms that make me feel safe?
Why does he have to tell me he misses me too?
Why does he have to tell me that he still loves me?

Why?

Why can't I stop loving him?
Why can't I just let go?
Why do I feel like I need him?
Why do I want to cry whenever I remember what It use to be like?

Why?

Damn him for being the one I love most....


May 2008

Allysyn Bryant

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