Alicia Calvin - Flaws

Why is it so hard for people to admit flaws?
Of themselves; Of their families
Neglection? Seclusion?
Let me break the mold
Seem happy?
Im so far from my aura its scary.

Im paranoid
Hiding forms of OCD
Borderline ADD
I judge
Which is against my personal values
I cry in secret
With or without a reason
I believe some people I love
Hate me
Including some of my family
Im a pathological Liar
Never contemplated suicide
But contemplated just
Leaving........
People seem to have more fun
without me........
I know two people who had more fun
When I didnt exist for a night
It was the best night of her life
-direct quote
I feel ugly as hell
Havin problems most girls my age
wouldnt think of
and sometimes..............
- more then sometimes.

I hate myself

Alicia Calvin

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