AJJ AJJ - miscarriage

why does life begin and end at a point and never
seeming to be endless pain, why is my time split
from wondering how i could have been and to what
i am now. i was once growing fast and good like
any ordinary child yet i was still in mums tummy
when i saw the light and i realised i was leaving,
going for good. i see the tunnel light and its coming
fast.
i ask mum where am i going and eww whats this
sticky red stuff coming out me and you, why am i
leaving my warm comfortable house as i m not
ready to leave.

i hear you crying and screaming mum why are you
screaming like a banshee who's about to die and than
it hits me hard the light so bright and beautiful and there
is no more.........................

as i see the tubes sticking out of my pretty woman and
feel her warm, arm as she breathe the shallow sexy breathes
of life i am torn and hurt yet i am still stone cold faced
knowing that my child is there infront of me coming out of her
and holding her in my arms as this beautiful being's spirit
ebbs away to god.

i see her looking at me wondering where her child is
and why she cant feel it kicking, holding her tummy like the
future is still to come tears coming out slowly like a
volcano ready to erupt. bang i am lost and confused
don't know what to do or say so i hold her in my bussom
as she cries day and night clouds fly by tomorrow is
today, today is tomorrow.

AJJ AJJ

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